Thursday, January 5, 2012

...and my life passed before my eyes.

it was New Year's Day.  This cold feeling came over me, it was hard to breath...
it was a feeling I remembered but one that hadn't visited me since college exams.  It was anxiety and the hurt was on, but why?

It was time to take down the Christmas decorations.  We had such a great holiday season why was I feeling like I could jump out of my skin?  It all started when I was taking down the Christmas tree in my youngest room.  I realized that next year, when I take out these decorations, the magic will be diminished if not all but gone for my 9 year old who will be 10 in a few weeks. 

For the past 14 years, our house has always been full of the magic, joy, wonder and just plan fun of Christmas.  I felt it slipping away... Suddenly, and I shit you not, I went from a vision of next year's Christmas to my 9 year old being 30 years old... married to a woman who hates her mother in law(yikes! but sound familiar?) and not even coming home for Christmas.  My life...right before my eyes.

Not to fear.
I am a pull yourself up by the boot straps kind of chick and have done just that. 

I did have such big plans for holiday blogging but I was too busy enjoying the holidays to blog about them and given my recent panic attack I am very happy that I enjoyed every minute of them.

I went to NYC for a day with a girlfriend of mine.  No kids, no husbands.  It was such a fun day but, what a mass of humanity!  So crowded we couldn't even get on the side walks to see the windows.  We did have a great lunch at Pigalle.
Rachel Ray featured the restaurant on her $40 a Day show NYC for the holidays.  Since the city was so crowded, we sat and ate and drank and ate.  It was a great place to people watch and we just had so much fun.  We topped it off with a Bellini, the champagne cocktail Rachel featured on her show.  Yum!
Everything in NYC is bigger than life...

  Rockefeller Plaza was so crazy full of people,
we took some quick pictures and then got out of there.
We sought refuge from the crowds at St Patrick's Cathedral, just beautiful. 

 and a reminder of the season...just waiting for the SBJ to arrive.
Then spent the rest of the two weeks before Christmas praying to the SBJ that our house would not be cursed with the puke bug.  Thank you SBJ, we were spared the vile bug. 
When not praying I was baking, wrapping, cooking and just relishing the time of the year.

Christmas Eve arrived and the Pat's were on at 1pm so the festivities at my house started then. 
Ginger watched for our guests to arrive.
It is so much fun to watch the game.  Thankfully they won.  After the game it was time to switch gears and our Christmas Eve celebration began. 
Christmas Eve has always been a big deal for us. Sit down dinner on the fancier side.  
 Christmas Day is a little more casual, it is the Swedish in us I guess. 
No presents Christmas Eve, just good food, family and the pure beauty of it all.
After our guests left, except for one(yes my MIL spent the night)
we watched It's a Wonderful Life.
It is our little tradition, my husband and I. Then it was
off to bed...in hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be here.

The stockings were hung...
The children were nestled...
and then it was morning...
we got our boys their own tv to play their video games on...
they were a little excited.
I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
Best wishes from this very thankful chick!

10 comments:

Reality Jayne said...

I want to go to New York so bad during the holiday season. I would love love love it.
I am glad you had a nice holiday with friends and family

rugosarosefarm said...

Welcome back! Looks like you had a fun filled holiday. Don't worry about the future daughter in law. Some people love thier MILs. She'll be like a daughter, they'll live nearby, you'll bake together and go shopping. It will be great!

Boho Farm and Home said...

What a great post! I too have those panic attack moments when I think of my daughter going off to college.
Looks like memories were made for all in your Christmas celebration!
xo
Caroline

Janie Fox said...

Looks like a wonderful holiday! Happy New Year a week late!

Lisa said...

I'm glad you're back - I missed you! But I'm so glad you enjoyed your holidays. Your photos are wonderful. Happy New Year!

Stitchfork said...

Happy New Year! And it should be more about enjoying the moments!
xo Cathy

WhisperingWriter said...

I love your pictures.

I got to go to NYC in May and I loved it. I can't wait to go back.

Theresa said...

great photos :)

I have a 9 soon to be 10 year old too...and I have been thinking the same thing...the magic will be gone soon.

I feel like my kids are growing up so fast-they are 9 and 12- and soon they will be off at college, married, with kids of their own...I do it that fast too!

I started a new blog http://redoaklane.blogspot.com

Nicole said...

NYC looks great! My maternal grandparents were Norweigan, and Christmas Eve was always the big deal - guess it's the Scandinavian thing.

Go Pats!

Bee Lady said...

Whew I made it. This is the post I was looking for. I have to tell you I feel exactly the same way about CHristmas only with my nieces since I don't have children. The youngest one is 8 but she knows...the 9 year old (who is my sister's child-the 8 year old my brother's child) found out this year...he ain't real (sniff sniff) I tell them I believe. But I have to tell you (since you don't know anyone I know..not really cept for RJ) that I was sitting on the couch the night they were here feeling sorry for myself because they were growing up and didn't care if they played with me! I'm such a baby. I didn't say anything to anyone. THen they came in and asked me to do a craft with them and I felt like the outcast child getting asked to join in the game. YEEAAAA.

Also, I think you commented on my blog about having boys...well my husband has two boys from a first marriage, and I watched two boys for 12 years...so I was VERY happy to have some girls in the family to play with! You'll get some...soon enough. Be nice to that DIL though. They can be pistols!!!

Cindy Bee